Yeah, I was a total slug yesterday. Spent the entire day in my pajamas. Showered and put more PJs back on. I was tired and had no drive to do anything whatsoever. So I sat in my chair and watched Contact and did my taxes. Totally unmotivated to do anything. I did weigh myself and I am at minus 34 pounds now. 6 more to go to my latest goal. So, that's good! But I still found myself in the familiar territory of the blues. I used to live there, wallow really, but things are a lot different now and so I just visit from time to time.
Today I had my first cup of coffee in 2 weeks and I'm gonna just say this: yeah caffeine may be bad for us but it's also GOOD for me. I immediately felt better, more able to focus and happier. So, the diet book states that you should only have 1 cup of coffee per day if you MUST. And evidently I MUST. I'm ok with that. I can do it without sugar (maybe throw in some Equal? and some soy milk) but I will have 1 cup a day. And I'm ok with that.
Still staying well within my weight watchers points and to the diet. I can see a big help in the increase I've made of vegetables and fruit. And I can tell you that I will add limited carbs such as bread and some dairy (i.e. eggs and cheese) back after the 6 weeks of "strict adherence" but I think I can handle not adding salt or sugar and staying away from the other white stuffs that are so bad for us (starchy things like potatos - high glycemic index - white bread, mayo, oil, etc).
So evidently, for me, caffeine isn't just a stimulant, it's an antidepressant. And I'm not going to step away from that any time soon. Sorry health food people. Sometimes you just need a warm cup of fragrant coffee.
One day. One pound. One step at a time.
~N
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