You ever seen Finding Nemo? Remember Dorie the fish with no short-term memory? She says "just keep swimming" over and over. That's my mantra right now. Couple of weeks ago, longer actually because it was the end of April, I found myself feeling like CRAP. Not fitting into clothes (again) and generally sensing that all progress I had made towards the goal of getting healthy had gone in the garbage.
So I started back up. I've had my gym membership for a year now and it had been months since I went with any regularity. The first few times (maybe 5?) I went back this month I could tell a significant decline in how much I could do without feeling like I wanted to die. Couldn't walk nearly as long, nor as fast. But I knew if I kept going it would kick in. Maybe not the "oh I LOVE the gym" feeling (because I think that's delusional) but at least the "ok, now I can push for 40 min, and then 45 minutes".
I have said it before and will keep saying it - until/unless this whole exercise thing is a part of my daily life I won't be able to see the results I truly need/want. So this past week I went to the gym every day. For at least 30 minutes. And pushed myself faster each time, even if it was just for a minute in the new mph it was a push. And yesterday I didn't go but we walked quite a bit and I can feel it today.
So when I stepped on the dreaded scales today, hoping against hope that I'd see at least a 2 or 3 pound change I was VERY happy to see 7 pounds gone. That's motivation I need. Back down the numbers we go. And please, oh please let's stay DOWN this time. It's up to me. 100% up to me.
Just keep swimming. Or walking, or running, or whatever it is that helps your muscles move and your body to function better. This week I will go back up Heart Attack hill, and I'm adding teeny tiny 5 lb weights and some arm exercises to it. Baby steps.
One pound. One day. One step at a time.
~N
